FracturedBeing Contributor
Forced onto sick leave
Just found out today that I am being forced onto sick leave, as they don't feel they can accommodate the requests that I had requested for my Autism/ADHD.
They had been informed of these issues over 12months ago.
I was recently asked (bullied, without appropriate time to consult the right doctor or union person) into resubmitting the paperwork again. Despite personal improvements the paperwork didn't reflect that, and new paperwork that I got my doctor to fill in this week has been rejected.
I've already contacted my union lady and am waiting to hear back from her tomorrow.
But I am really spiralling. After months of searching, my housemate and I just signed a new lease last week. I don't know how I'm going to afford it, we move in 2 weeks.
I'm not good with change, I've had this job 20years, had been in this current house for 10years, in the last year my mental health started to decline, so I reached out for help, got all the right paperwork with hopes that I would be protected by disability laws or something similar. But everything seems to have gotten worse over the last 18months.
I've called crisis lines this evening, because honestly I have no friends to talk to. My body is so wound up from stress that I can't keep food down, and am barely keeping water down.
I keep telling myself that I just need to get through the night and I will have more information to work with tomorrow once the union lady gets back to me. But I'm so wired, I keep flipping between that calming thought process, to ' I'm going to be homeless in a few months' to I can go to the country and live in my brothers backyard, but the detriment to my mental health going back to that small town would be severe.
I've tried all the cold showers, tapping exercises, breathtaking. I'm flipping between mild calm on the couch, to manically pacing the house.
Sorry, I just needed to vent.
I am so scared.