Caring for my bf (for training)

Hey,

I thought I would join because I am feeling a little isolated, lonely and helpless. I have been caring for my partner for 18 months (I am 20 now, was 18 when I started) and we had only been together about 3 weeks when I was asked by the hospital to look after him when he was discharged and since then it has been presumed that I am ready and willing to look after him. He has mental health problems and it can be quite stressful at times when he is really ill or has to go to hospital and I have no idea what to do! I've had no real support from anyone, I had a carers assesment about 6 months ago but was told that as a full-time student there is no support available for me and that was it. I have noone to call in a crisis or for advice and can't take a job alongside my studies to financially support us both. As the benefit system is so slow for the last 18 months we have been living off just my student loan as he has been told he is too ill to work, which is a pressure in itself! I'm not with him at the moment or for the next week as i just had major surgery and can't do anything for myself let alone him but I'm constantly worried about him without me!

Sorry that was a bit ranty... I havent spoken to anyone about this!